Woke up today after another crap night of sleep. Woke up to a video of someone suffering from near enough the same problems I am on YouTube, was kinda taken back by it correlating. When I first got ill, it followed a huge spider bite that appeared on my leg. I am not great with doctors (only got much worse) so didn’t decide to get it seen to. After that for 4 months I proceeded to have neurological issues, fever like symptoms and pain from my chest and back. After a chriorpractor session, it pretty much wrote me off, but only decided to go for the treatment because I was running out of options and thought it could have been effective. I ended up booking a call for Monday to discuss having some tests and believe I’ll go for the £775 package which not only covers lyme and other TBE diseases, but diseases from mould and many other things. I also booked a myofacial release session to try and help somewhat and give relief. I’m still not eating though so I don’t know how great I’m gonna be come these things. Haven’t been able to force myself to eat still due to bad depression.
Moved the blog to the root domain as Google was clearly showing issues with the subdomain for indexing. Will have to update bing and other engines with the changes or use a redirect to the root domain. I’m not happy with the fact the site was knocked out of Google search after fighting to keep it up for so long, so I’ll do what’s needed including rewriting articles as “fresh content” and moving the site to a new domain. I expect within a month to be back indexed when searching for things like the doctors name who assaulted me.
Haven’t done any K today, just xanax and weed. I feel like I can take it or leave it, but if I take it I’ll be taking it till I go to bed, due to the drops it gives you. Getting reliant on a tranq/anastetic is not ideal, but life has shafted me hard enough to have to resort to it. Opiates are okay baseline pain relief, but doesn’t really help with acute pain, and you think my doctors gonna help with that? Yeah, right. I only get half the amount of tramadol prescribed I need let alone get acute pain management. I just get told to bare through it, and now the only thing I’m baring through is the highs that harder drugs give me that I’ve had to resort to.
I’m surprised I’m still not hungry, just having other issues that come with not eating. I don’t think I’ve gone this far/long with eating this little, but I think the K has assisted with that, who knows. I still don’t wanna be around hence my decision to give up in such a way, but the tests will be something to look forward to I guess and give me some motive to try eat whenever I feel up to it. Last time I ate was Saturday, a handful of wedges and felt sick after. Not sure how I’m gonna turn that around, but is a worry for another day at the moment.